Just as I thought I know it best this time. I thought wrong; again.
I found myself dwelling in a certain memory lane which i cannot push to the back of my head.
And once again, i'm back here. The same spot where i was 2 years ago...i left that spot in hopes to never find myself back there again. I remember saying the quickies Goodbye and today that same spot greets me with the longest welcome back!
I must admit, i am a total wreck when it comes to dealing with breakups. I will never major/master at this being strong and independent women thing, when it comes to this one certain department. Ya, i sux.
The most difficult part of this would be letting go every plans we made. To tell you the truth, i was secretly looking forward to them. On a random note: I cried watching Kick-ass last night, cause instead of watching it alone, i could have been laying down on your chest all snuggled up with you in bed watching it. Ok, I swear if i cried anymore, my eyes would literally pop out.
2years back...
In case most of ya'll didnt know, I met Aiman by accident, a random stranger who turned out to be the Loml. Whenever ppl would to ask me, how did we meet, i would be on my feet dramatizing exaggerating storytelling. I love the 'How I met Aiman' Story. Now, all i get on my Fb walls are...."What Happen"? and a whole load of msg in my inbox. Really appreciate the concerns and all but no calls at the moment pls.
Present Day.
That night, i drove home alone, there was this scene of you walking away that kept continuously playing on my mind. Regardless what happen, you don't walk away from the person you intend to share your life with. It makes the person feel, she was not worth enough for you to sit and reason with her hence you left.
Anyhow, I found the quite most comfiest spot in my square one and i don't intend to move anymore. I still dunno how im gonna pull through but guess i will. somehow. baby steps again.
I was in such a mess this morning, I couldnt believe that i could not pull myself together to get to work but Tomorrow, tomorrow I promise i will take the first step.
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